What About My Own Soil

Soil is very important to us; it is where we build our lives. In the sense that, it is where we get our food and rely on physical structures. As an agriculturist, we say "Soil is life" it is where our life is. Without soil, we cannot live in this earth. Basically, I know very well how to know and to maintain a rich soil. The proper way of handling especially during planting and harvesting period. Scientifically speaking, yes I know very well but the question is, how about my inner soil? Do I have a rich soil that a good seed can propagate?

I claim to know how is to live. But when things do not go the way I expect them to be, I begin to pull back. At the end of a burn out week, I sigh, "Life is an unfertile soil. I sulk. I get frustrated. When things get rough, I cease to find meaning in what I do. The good works I have done seem to be in vain. My relationship gets blurred. Problems get worse until I see no way out. I give up and conclude that I really cannot have a rational explanation for all the bad things that happen. The only choice I have is to abandon the soil and go where pleasurable and comfortable are.

But God does not allow this to happen. He shows the method on how to nourish my soil. The "faith" I have assures that God is in control and all He requires is to trust Him and start cultivating the unfertile soil to have great and abundant harvest in the future. Experiences and constant communion with Him are the way to have this rich soil. An in the context of religious life, we need community to nourished our own soil; we need one another especially us an aspiring missionaries. We need the rich soil. It is the only thing we could bring to the people. It is a key to know, to live and to proclaim Gods word.

It's not that easy to have rich inner soil. Like farming, it's not that easy to do. We have to know the proper process of fertilization of the soil, to analyze what kind of nutrients that the soil have and don't have and what are practices that can maintain a good and rich soil. God gave us seed to propagate; it is only us how we will plant the seed in order to have good harvest. It doesn't need only words or deeds alone but the combination of both words and deeds.

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